Grief Sucks

Code id by nose,
Messy living room
Dirty dishes.

The recycling is not taken out.
Child put to bed late
Meals perfunctory, unplanned.

Mood: grumpy
Reactions: irritable
Affect: apathetic.

Low-grade internal refrain:
It's not fair! What happens now?!
Everything's OVER! Make it better!
Make it stop! Why is everybody bothering me?!


A Real Conversation in My House

M.M.: waaaahh, I don't want to be sick anymooooore!

Mama: Oh, sweetie, I'm so sorry

M.M.: You're making me be sick! You don't want me to go on my field trip!

What can I say? It's true, of course. I love it when she feels horrible, cries, whines, snot goes everywhere. And I definitely don't want her to go on a field trip. Bwah ha ha ha!